I’ve tried to write this letter a thousand times and each time I could never get my words quite right. I started with just a list at first, a list of all the things I hope to change about myself this year. It wasn’t quite right though. See, I’ve never been one for resolutions. I never have managed to complete one, at least, not that I can remember. All that aside, I’m glad you’re here because I’ve been looking forward to meeting you. I’m going in with no expectations and just hoping you’re a better friend than 2015 (because honestly, she was kind of a bitch at times). As we’ve gotten off to a pretty good start, here are a few things I’d like to try to make happen with you.
I will say “yes” more often.
To people. To invites. To opportunities. This year I will say “yes” more often and take the chances to get to know new people and places, even if it means forcing myself to go out when I’m not really feeling up to it. One of the struggles of expat living is maintaining a circle of friends when the expat community as a whole is quite transient. I’ve been living here for so long that sometimes I forget just how amazing this place can be and it’s always when I go out and explore as if it were all new that I fall in love with Spain again. This year I will say yes to more people, invites, events, and adventures to continue falling in love with the world around me.
I won’t give up.
2015 was the year of ‘almost-but-not-quite’. It seems that as I tried to advance my career path, I would get so close to reaching that next step and then not quite make it. I’m not giving up though. Just because one path to reach your goal isn’t working out, no matter how many times you try, doesn’t mean it’s time to give up on your dream. Maybe it’s just time to try a new path. If you keep trying to do something a certain way but just can’t seem to make it happen, try another way. That’s what I intend to do this year and I’ve got some goals and plans that hopefully I can share later.
I will let go of the negatives from last year.
2016, you’re a new start. Like, honestly, a new start for me. I started my time with you in a new apartment, a fresh start at work after a well-deserved break, and a new game plan. I like how we’re starting out. You’ve seen me more motivated than ever to make things happen and to go for the things that make me happy. In order to really take advantage of our time together, I know I need to let go of the bad things that were in my life last year. That means thoughts, habits, memories, and even people. So, that’s what I’m doing; I’m getting rid of it. Some of the negative stuff is easier to let go of than others, but I promise I’m going to make every effort to not let it impact you and me, 2016.
I don’t believe we need a new year to make a new start, but sometimes the timing lines up just right and you find the motivation you need to make those big changes. Here’s to you, 2016. Let’s make it happen.